The harshness of reality and the journey to change

I’ve had a few people ask me if I was still writing for this blog. I was a little shocked because I didn’t think anyone actually read this blog. I responded with yes of course! BUT (there’s always a but) I’ve been struggling emotionally and with my words. As anyone who has had a baby, […]

Love and a Pregnancy Scare

I had all these ideas for blog posts I wanted to write (which I still will) until Sunday morning happened. I haven’t talked to many people about it because everything was and is fine. In our journey into becoming parents this time around, we had a scare. And maybe my concerns were legitimate or I […]

When Comfort Trumps Fashion

Before I ever even got pregnant I had this horrible fear about myself and my appearance. My fear was that I wasn’t going to look pregnant, that I would just look fat. You can’t blame me, after all, you hear all these stories about plus size women and how they never get that full “round […]

You Are Beautiful

  No one, especially women, especially pregnant women, want to hear the words “you’re huge”. You would think that’s common sense, right? You would think that a woman telling another woman would know this, right? You would think another mother who has carried children before would know that this is an unspoken rule, right? Apparently […]

I’m so PHAT in my ‘Kini

I hate shopping. Well really I have a love/hate relationship with shopping for clothes. Shoes, on the other hand, I have no problem leaving with multiple pairs of shoes in one trip. I love to go shopping, but I hate spending money on myself and I HATE, HATE, HATE finding clothes for my body type. […]

My Biggest Pregnancy Struggle (so far)

I am human and I struggle with a lot of things. I struggle with my pride, with apologies, with learning to hold my tongue, with being a sister, daughter, wife, mother, and with life. I struggle with every fucking thing. And right now I have added another struggle. My weight. Not just my weight in […]

Two Pairs of Pants

After I was done freaking out I remembered I needed to tell Roy. Of course prior to all of this, for months I had thought about how I would break the news to Roy, my family, and eventually friends. Let’s just say everything I planned went right out the damn window. I put the pregnancy […]

The Day Time Stood Still

You know how there’s always certain events that you can replay in your head and you would swear you were back in that same scene in life?  That’s how I feel about the day I found out I was pregnant, or even the days leading up to it too really. DISCLAIMER: I talk about my […]

So Many Feels

You know when you really want a certain car or buy a new car and all of a sudden you see that car on the road every time you’re driving? That’s how I felt about getting pregnant. Except I wasn’t pregnant but a lot of women I knew were either announcing they were pregnant, were […]

Baby Talk-Part III

In November of 2015 it was time for my annual woman’s wellness appointment. I probably should have gone right after we decided to start trying and I got off birth control, but since we are being real honest here I knew my yearly was coming up and the appointment would be free. I wasn’t trying […]